Hmeichhiate ngaihzawn rawn leh duh rawn, an bula awmtura an duh tak chu nilo mahila, ka tette atanga nu leh pa te zirtirna anga hmeichhia kawm hnem tak ka nih avangin hmeichhia hi ka kawm ve ta nual a, mite lerh tih chan chang mahila ‘ka chhungril nun an hriatloh chuan a tawk’ ti in ka in thlamuan ve fo thin. Hmangaihhi nei ni in vawi tamtak ka in hre tawh thin, mahse hunlehni te a lo herliam tam meuh hnu chuan rilru ah an lo thamral leh mai thin, khuahmun lo a awm phei chuan thinlung taka in ngaih veng vengna a awm reng mawh hle. Sakhmel tawnni alo her erawh chuan ‘D’ hluite leh lenrual hluite chu thinlai ah anlo thar leh thin a, kan hmangaih tak ni a kan hriatte pawhkha hmel in tawn leh avang chauha in ngai thar leh kan awm chawk a ni. Mahse hmangaihtu diktak chuan a hmangaih chu hmun hla tak ah awm pawh nise a thinlung chhung ah a kiang ah a awm ve reng thin a, hla phuahthiam ten an lo tih thin angin lung vawikhat a phut leh thaw kan hip luh apiang hian an mahni ah chuan chakna thar a pe thei a, beidawnga an awm in beiseina a pe a, lungngaia awm te hlimna leh chakna a pe a, khawvel thlahlel tawhlo te thin lung ah beiseina thar duhawm tak ape leh thin. Hmangaihtu chuan a hmangaih tan chuan engkim tih a huam a, a tuar a, a hlimna tur chuan tih hreh a nei ngailo, a chhan chu a hmangaih chu atana a engkima a engkim a ni. Chutiang khawpa hmangaihna dik leh ril chu kan tunlai khawvel ah hi chuan hmuhtur leh hriattur avang ta hle.
‘Hmeichhe tamtak hmangaihna chu bazara thlaihnah zawrh ang mai a ni a, mipa tamtakte thusawi chu damchhunga mite pawi khawihtu a ni fo thin’ tih a ni ta. Engvang in nge miretheite chan a chhiat tak viau le? Hmangaihtu thinlung hi avahan dawihzep thin tak em! Hmanlai kan pi leh pute erawh kha chuan hmangaihloh nena lendun ai chuan hmangaihte ngei nena bahrakhur laih dun pawh an lo thlahlel zawk thin a, kha hmangaihna ngei mai kha Khuanu minpek ‘hmangaihna’ diktak a nih hi kei chuan ka ring bangthei ngai lo. Nupui pasal in neih hnua hmangaihna piang kan tih te hi chu Pathian tuahrem, Khuanu samsuih ah kei chuan ka chhiar vethei ngai lovang. Mipa leh hmeichhia in hmangaihna tamtak ralleh mai thin erawh kan chhut chian a pawimawh hle, awlsam taka kan neih theih chu hunreilote ah kan hloh leh mai thin a, hunrei tak beiseina nena kan nghah hnua thawhrah erawh hunreizawk a daih thin tih thu hi keiaia pawm nghet tur an awm kher in ka ring lo, lo awmpawh nise kan rindan a in tluktawk tho kala ring fan a ni. Chutih rual chuan ‘Love at first Sight’ tih hi chu a awmthei ang tih ka ring tho bawk, thinlung in a hriatreng chuan a bak a awm chuang lo.
Duhthu leh ngainat thu chu kan sawi fo thei, min tih hlim thu leh kan kianga awmtura kan duhthu pawh kan lo sawifo tawh thei e, chung zawng zawng te chu hunreilote atan a ni thei tih kan hriat erawh a pawimawh hle, ‘Hmangaihna’ erawh hi chu damchhung daihtur anih avangin mitin te hnena zawrh ngawt chu Pathian duhdan pawh kan kalh ang tih a hlauhawm hle a, mi tu emaw kan hmangaih nia kan hria te a nih chuan damchhung daihtur anih ngawt loh chuan sawiloh a him ber a, kan sawilui a nih chuan a hnua keimahni rilru leh thinlung ti hnualtu ah atang ang tih a hlauhawm hle. Unau leh mihringpuite hmangaihna nilo, mipa leh hmeichhia te kara hmangaihna hi zawng, kan duh zawng te hnen apianga kan hlan hi a mawi dawn em ni? nakin hnu ah kan zah khua ti tam tu leh mite rilru tina tu mai an ni ang tih a hlauhawm hle a, rilru diklo leh tawngkam chhia phei chu khawvel ah hian a kual a kual a, tuman an duh loh avangin a chhuahna ah a lut leh thin an tia lawm, tak tak a nih phei chuan kan fimkhur tlan hle a ngai ngei ang.
Hmangaihna kan sawi a, kan sawilai in ‘feel’ viau thin mah ila kan theihnghilh leh nghal mai thin. Enge a chhan? Kan thinlung hian innghahna tak tak tur hian ala tawng lo zawk nge, keimahni hi kan chiang lo zawk. Keichuan ka duhthu hrilh thin mah ila ka hmangaih a ni kher lo a, ka hmangaih thu chiang tak, ka chhia leh tha hriatna nena ka hlan tawh zawng kumtluang in ka nghilhlo mai ni lo in, ka thinlung chhung ril ah hian a chul tawh kher in ka ring lo, ka nun hian awmzia a nei tawh lo a, ka chhia leh tha hriatna te an bo a nih ngawt loh zawng in ka tiam tawh chu he ka lei damchhung zawng hian ka sut mawlh lo ang.
Kan u pakhat, nupui neitawh sawi ka hriat reng thin chu ‘kan dinhmun hi hetiang hi nilo se emaw, mite ang in keimah chiah inngaihtuah ni ila chuan tuna ka nupui nen hian kan innei kher in ka ring lo...’ a ti a, ngaihtuah a ti thui khawp mai. Hmeichhiate leh mipa te hi an in ang vek kher lo tih chu mitamtak ten kan kawppuite bula kan sawi thin a ni, mahse mi tha leh dik tak tak te chuan dinhmun in ang lo atang chuan hlauhthawn an la neitho mai si a nih hi, mipa ten ‘mahni aia hausa nupui neih chu a tir in in thup in fel viau mahse a rei in min hmusit a, an rilru ah fello a awm’, tih thu in kan rilru a tih hnual laiin hmeichhia te pawh in ‘dinhmun inthlau lutuk chu a chan chhe zawk kan ni thin’ tih hi an hre ve reng bawk si a, a buaithlak teh zawng a nih hi.
Tumkhat chu Mizoramin psychiatrist kan neih zinga lar ber pawl Pu Hrekima nen kan in kawmna ah a ni chuan “hmangaihna mai a ni lo, kawng engkim ah mi dawihzep lutuk chuan a chan tur tam tak a chan loh phah a, a hnu ah amah bak a in dem leh chuang lo...” a ti a, he thu hian a sawi kim khawp mai. Ni e, Mipa nih chuan a che hmasa tura ngaih chu kan nia lawm le, hmanlai lalram ropui tak tak te pawh kha hmeichhia avangin an lo buai fo tawh thin a, a pawimawh ber nita a ka hriat chu tu pawh ni ila, engang hmel leh pianhmang pawh pu in, kan dinhmun in zir chiah lo mahse kan duh leh hmangaih te chu zep miahlo leh an mahni zahtak chung si a kan hriat tir ngei a ngai a ni, hethu kan sawi hma hi chuan engmah hian awmzia a nei tak tak ngailo ang. Kan in nghak tawn anga a tawp ah lengdang tang bela min liamsan hnu in kan rilru a na mai mai dawn, min duh emaw duhlo emaw kan hriattir kha a sualna a awmlo, tute mah hian min hmangaihtu te leh min duh tute chu kan hua in kan ti na tak tak in ka ring lo, hei vang hian a ni mi tamtak in a tawp ah tak tak chuan kan hmangaihte ai in min hmangaihtu hi an hlu zawk an lo tih thin ni. Thu chu i zep chuan pawitih hun i nei ngei ang, mahse i sawi a nih chuan eng dinhmun ah pawh ding mahla, i hunlehni te chu hahdam tak in i thlir liam thei tawh ang, khawvela mitin te rohlu ber hmangaihna i hlan tan chuan ava han hlu dawn tehreng em!.
Hmangaihna hi enge a nih a, engtia lantir tur nge tih leh adang te chu kan damchhung nun atana pawimawh a nih si avang in keimahni duhthlanna ah a in nghat a ni, kan thlansual leh kan vanduai deuh a ni anga, kan thlan fuh leh mi vannei berte zinga mi kan ni mai dawn a ni. What is LOVE? A chhanna chu nangmah ah a in nghat e.
Hmangaihna avanga rilru hrang hrang pu te thu sawi thenkhat te:-
“I never stop loving you, i just stop showing it, coz i cry a dozen times... i’m tired of trying, sick of crying... yeahh, i’m smiling but inside i’m dying!!”
“Wish i could run away from this pain, but hurting because of you is great for me”
Ka van duh e abikin pu hrekima i kawmna atanga a hnuai thla ho zawng kha ka duh riau, tha ka tiin,beiseina pawh min pek belh chhah,ka lawm lutuk e, a ngaihnawm hle bawk
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